Relationships

Relationships are funny.  Nothing ever stays the same.  People come and go and I wonder why God mixes the pot.  There doesn't seem to be a foundation made before they are swept away on another path of their own.  Some are irreplaceable and will never know the impact made on a person like myself. I feel lost and alone.  It's really selfish of me to wonder why my path was not good enough.  But that is not how the world works anymore.

In days gone by, families and friends stayed  together.  Wisdom was handed down from generation to generation.  The younger respected the values of the older and over and over again, children passed down what they had learned.

 Those days are gone.  The world is open to everyone to experience.  Ahh, if I only had a second chance.  I would not be whittling away my years in an office where my values and work ethic became my god.  I watched the sun come up and the sun go down all while sitting in my office.  What did I see of the world? Did I learn about life; social skills; make friends?  No, I worked day and night; came home and worked some more.  If I only had a second chance.

I suppose I could travel now, but my chance has come and gone.  It's not possible physically, financially, or emotionally.  Fear rises inside me and can't be controlled. It is not very interesting to go solo; even for local events.

Yes, relationships are funny. Family and friends are on different paths that never cross.  Not in this life anyway.